State of Emergency

Sometimes it´s even hard to take one day at the time
You watch yourself calmly drown in the depths of your conscience
And finally realise that your previous resolutions statement is no longer valid
In those moments of extreme draught, just when you thought you could conquer your demons
They creep right from behind

Unrecognizable at the beginning
Though you know those unrealistic merciless creatures always return, but in different shades of grey
Try to focus, worthless effort... as some already grab your from the throat
Speaking your mind is an unfortunate endavour
when the common demon has already took control of the main source of wisdom from within

Rapidily your body turns aghast
The nerve cells confuse the pattern so well learned with effort before
While you watch in awe how you loose the grip of sanity
Vividly you revive the old movie you constantly try to avoid watching
Even if the tiniest detail in your surroundings reminds you of it 

Your whole body trembles at the beginning
Your mind tries to descern the meaning of this inequitable virtual battle you are about to loose
A sparkle of true courage excels from the doom
to put your poor defences up and in the peak of this endless fight
Just be conscious enough to watch yourself fade away from reality

Functional movements, breathing control
New resolutions are about to come
This is the State of emergency

It´s inconclusive, yet predominant
The semi-life you are about to live again

Own Commander

Something we could call self glory

Won't let us free ourselves from chains

'Cause ancient hatred full of anger

Still keeps struggling from within

Grab some questions, make up them

Willing nonsense to step in

Acting all like if you do knew

Shatter all those rightgeous plans

Lack of comprehension, emphathy and self esteem

Source rotten human preachers

Would they ever see what's wrong?

Would the rest of us stand strong?

You are your own guideline

Yo draw your path in life

Why let others take the lead?

Why please them just to lean on?

Fake intensions, all I saw

Cruel inventions of facts untold

Let us be what we want to be
Be your own commander

Listen while reading this post to Moonlight in Chaos Shone - Nightshade (Melodic Death Metal Band from Sweden)

For You, Dear

As you entered the gate

Arose silence, now feints

Awoke images through pain

No wonder why I left myself drain...

Consecuences at that time

Conquered sorcerers, denied

Wonder how to put aside

The wounded memories of a lifetime

Princess Gaia, no more tears

Need you here, freeze all tears

Come to shelter this giant me

All that's left is a broken seed

a withered seed..

Climbed summits, mountains

But also survived hell

Corrupted veins, shaded friends

How could I have been so strong

Now sheltered only inside your soul

Mine is torn, mine's a void

Never seeked for true perfection

Never seeked for a higher creation

I just wanted to stay firm

To admire the beauty from within

Never asked for admiration

Never searched for inspiration

Hollow souls what I shall fill

With the thoughts I do make real

No other shall ever dream

About my senses, about my sins

What if we keep silent?

What if I stand still?

Cold cruel summers and never hasitated

To remember the lowest, the lamest

Everything is part of a story

A part of a lifeline

Not some arranged glory

Hazel eyes around me.. 

Hazel eyes inside me..

Hazel eyes embracing from within

Is all I feel, is all I dream

Is all I imagine, is all that's real

Like I feel it now.... 

Floating through the mist

Floating above men's sins

Above the instrascendent mankind's feelings

Above the standard human desires

Above misery, vain and weakness

I love you above this lost soul

That this encounter has lifted to the stars

... to meet yours.

Fotografía: Daniela Portillo Corzo

danielaportillo_corzo@hotmail.com

Oh.. if I only had the power to bring innocence back..

there was upon a time

when lullabies where sung

where clouds tasted kindness

and rhymes were done with hope

bring those memories back, I told them

but non emotions were shown

if i had the power

i would let things go

help me choose a precious word

help me find that wisdom thought

how could I ever imagine 

things would never ever grow

again i find  myself fainting

a pen on my right

some illusive letters aside

for the ones that have already fallen

oh... if only i had the power to bring innocence back.. 

Sealed in Me

He estado aquí aproximadamente unas 9 horas y aún me pregunto lo mismo. No les diré qué me pregunto, ya que esta entrada no es acerca de mis incontables reflexiones, sino del término.. reflexión. Si bien los humanos tendemos a buscar dentro de nosotros mismos ciertas respuestas a preguntas personales, es realmente provechoso hacerlo? Es realmente sano hacerlo? Nadie lo sabría, cada respuesta es sumamente personal y todos tendrían opiniones contrarias.. pero hablando sólo por mí... creo que el buscar una respuesta coherente y racional dentro de mí misma es algo contraproducente. Llega el momento en que ni me acuerdo cómo comenzó la reflexión y me pierdo en estas nebulosas impenetrables de lo que es, debe de ser y sería.

Es por esto que si bien seguiré reflexionando acerca de lo que debo de reflexionar, ya no volveré a quedarme horas de horas tratando de averiguar la verdad. Qué verdad? No hay verdades. Es o no es, y para muchos es y para otros no es.


Sealed in Me

Innocence gone and you can´t see much further
Waiting until you encounter the key
Where the truth is hiding upon tears
Although we are still friends
You are sealed in me forever

Sealed in me forever here
Sealed behind those shaded dreams
Sealed in me, believe it's real
Sealed and wounded by closest fears

Fear controls the whole
Near it comes the deepest ocean
Here you deceive it all
Clear we see and clearly I suffer

Void it's all I can sense
Pain includes cold shaking hands
That's all that's left in me
Replaced only when I listen to that voice
Calming down my horrors

Sealed in me forever here
Sealed behind those shaded dreams
Sealed in me, believe it's real
Sealed and wounded by closest fears

Created kingdoms, never faced truth
Behind the veil, there's only you
The illusion just faded away
Believed walls would be my strength
But decayed 'cause of the pain
And this should be sealed in me forever

Sealed in me forever here
Sealed behind those shaded dreams
Sealed in me, believe it's real
Sealed and wounded by closest fears



No hay explicación. Así de simple, no existe explicación alguna. Es por eso que dejaré de reflexionar y me dejaré llevar por lo que creo que es y no por lo que los demás piensan que es. Esto es, será y sería para mi.

Y como no hay explicación, lo dejo aquí.

Nathalie